Something old, something new.
I met someone. What started as a casual internet thing took a turn to the physical. After a week of talking online and such we discovered we were rather close to one another location wise. We ended up spending the night together and everything was good. I just don’t know where it’s going or what she wants from me. I’m 26 and she’s 41. The age difference doesn’t scare me. I’ve always been told I have an old soul and I prefer talking to a woman as opposed to a girl.
But then I question myself. What the hell can I offer this woman? I know I’m emotionally broken. Is it fair to put that on her? Is it even fair to put it on anyone? I feel like a scumbag because if she were to ask me what I want, I honestly wouldn’t know what to say to her. I know I just don’t want sex. I’m not that type of person. I’ve slept with three people my whole life and this is one of the few times where I’ve slept with someone I don’t love and I don’t know what to think. It seems like socially this is the norm. That it’s ok to use sex as a stepping stone for a relationship? I wasn’t raised that way.
I don’t know what to do. But then again I guess I should have thought about that before spending the night with her right?
